Control is nothing but an illusion. The idea that you can influence the outcome of a situation and that you are able to manipulate the outcome is truly an illusion. No matter what your faith may or may not be, the universe will ultimately dictate the outcome. There are too many mitigating influences that you aren’t even aware of to truly ever be in control of something. But the feeling of having some management over the course of your life is not overrated.
guess my feelings of a lack of control is more emotionally based than anything else. Its more about making peace with the physical or emotional place I am in. Understanding that the decisions I make can only effect so much and that its not just my behavior or choices that will affect the outcome of a situation.
know that all sounds very common sense but applying it when you feel like there is nothing you can to stop death from coming early.. well, let’s just say its easier said than done. There are no known treatment options I can do or decisions I can make that will alter my course at this time.
Knowing what you can be in control of is really the biggest challenge I think. I can choose to eat a certain way as not to cause other health issues. I can try to remain calm to lessen my anxiety, not get so worked up over the little things that frustrate me. Spend time doing the things that I do enjoy. Being present in the moment as not to feel like I took a situation for granted. Being diligent in my stretching routines. can control some things, but not everything. Maybe one day my brain will understand that concept, but until then, I am just trying to do take it one decision at a time.
